I lost my son, Mathias, in a tragic accident on a fateful night in November 2021. He was struck while walking with his dog on the highway, completely disoriented due to a benzo he had purchased online.

This book is my account of everything that happened in the following two years, from the heart-wrenching news on that fateful night to the moment I had to bury my child and the realization that I would never truly be able to enjoy life again.

By means of this book, I hope to, along with Mathias...

"...I love him, and I respect him, and I need him. We all do." - from the foreward by Jamie Lee Curtis. If you would have told a young John Stamos flipping burgers at his dad's fast-food joint that one day he'd be a household name and that, at the height of his success, he'd be living alone, divorced, with no kids, high on a cocktail of forgettin